Suburban Oblivion

I’ve noticed being a mom is like juggling. Each child is a ball, and with each one you have to have to work to keep them balanced with each other, and with the rest of the balls you are juggling- the spouse, the home, the finances, the job, the family, the activities. Adding in depression is like trying to continue to juggle it all, but blindfolded.

I was feeling really good when I wrote my last post. The blindfold was gone, and I felt like I had all my balls in the air, so to speak. I have been happier, my kids have been happier, even my husband has been happier seeing the house looking better, me feeling better, and things overall being calmer here. We spent some time alone last night laughing and enjoying each other’s company like we haven’t in some time.

Today another ball dropped.

Seems in my recent fog I made some mistakes, and failed to keep a good eye on the checking account. We agreed awhile back that would be one of my responsibilities, and this is not the first time I’ve screwed things up. Unfortunately this screwup is going to cost us a lot of money. I am so beyond upset right now. Ian is so mad at me it’s not even funny, and I can’t blame him a bit. We go to Orlando every year for our one vacation, and I may have put that in jeopardy with this.

The only possible redeemer right now is I subbed for the first time at my boys’ preschool, and apparently did really well with it. I’m told once you get your foot in the door they will call you to work more often. I went in to the director earlier and told her I’ll take as many days as they will give me, so please keep me in mind when teachers call out. The pay isn’t outstanding, but it’s work, and I can bring my boys with me when I am there and drop them in with their teachers even if it isn’t their usual days. No nights, no weekends, no eating into family time.

Do me a favor and cross your fingers they call me often, this is one ball I have got to get back in the air.

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Ian and I are huge fans of Project Runway. We’ve watched every season, and look forward to the next one. One of our favorite people on the show is Tim Gunn. Sharp-witted, classy, and good looking, what’s not to like? He totally makes Project Runway, and obviously Bravo realized this when they decided to capitalize on his success and give him his own show. “Making over the makeover show”, Tim Gunn is now hosting Tim Gunn’s Guide to Style.

One episode folks. One episode and I am HOOKED. And I have to confess, I’m in love with Tim Gunn. Not in the “I want to get in your pants” kind of way, we don’t swing in the same direction ya know. But more in a “I want to go out to lunch and go shopping with you and bring you home and tell me what to wear and be my new best girlfriend” kind of way. He may not have the time or desire to eat popcorn and watch cheesy movies at sleepovers with me, but he is more than welcome to come re-vamp my closet any day.

This is truly the show I have been waiting for. I have watched What Not to Wear for some time, but somehow it only gets you so far. Once the shock value of their comments wears off, you are not left with a lot of workable tips. Plus a lot of the clothes they feature are way too trendy. My goal is timeless classic; style that will last beyond a season or two. Tim Gunn to the rescue with his 10 items every woman should own.

I haven’t been this excited about a show since the start of The Tudors.
I hope you guys will be watching it too, because I KNOW I am not the only mama out there needing a fashion intervention!

I need you guys to help me stay strong today!

I had my day all mapped out. The boys both have school today, and the PTA is getting ready for our fall fundraiser, so I volunteered to go in and help with that for the 4 hours I’ll have free. The woman running fundraising is freaking awesome so I totally don’t mind, and I’ll feel good getting some time in with that. All good, right?

Only…..I got an email from NY and Co. and they are having their end of summer clearance, and there are some serious markdowns going on. And then I read that Clinique has some promotion going on and they are giving away a free lipstick to the first 500 people who ask for it at each location. Clinique lipstick folks, the fourteen dollars a pop kind. Who can pass that up? Between that and the sale it’s like someone up there just wants me at the mall today. Except I have plans. And I really can’t afford to be shopping. And I am working on losing a bit of weight(down 4lbs this week!!!! Go me!) so it doesn’t make sense to buy clothes right now. And to emphasize again, I really can’t afford to do any shopping right now.

Remind me I need to be at the school today doing good deeds instead of out selfishly shopping for awesome clothes I can’t afford or fit, and getting *sob* free Clinique lipstick.